Komakshi sharma, didn't show any interest : a failed relationship

where every lesson is like a life for me and every experience is like a tough training for me.

This is the truth of life guys, when i met that bus girl on the very first day, she looked so lively and bubbly. Their was  innocence in her voice, but today after 2 months when i explored few sections of her attitude, guys, believe me,  from many months during my one hour journey to Gurgaon,  i noticed that  she is not uttering  a word even, their was kind of undeclared ignorance. I was slowly understanding the reason for this vaccum. One sided communication is always harmful for a genuine friendship. The girl i met  this time has been a big turn off for me and I'm really pissed off by her ways. Their is no action in her life, her brain and heart have freezed, I'm not at all attracted towards her now, but of course, was looking forward for some genuine friendship.  Her actions showed that she had a painful past or may be some one else is already there in her life. 

But dating back to the time, during the first 15 days, she commenced flirting with me but later when i started flirting with her, she got surprised. I said her jokingly that i am not able to sleep at night because of you, you have entered into my thoughts and i don't know what's     happpening...hehehehehahahahahahahah....lolzz.........I kept on smiling with in. Today, when i asked her that why do you talk so less, she replied very rudely, yaar itnaa hee hotaa hai, aur kya, so either i'm not dying for you, lady....I think, i would not be able to carry this relation any more. But hope is the best key.I sometimes regret that i would have avoided being so much straight forward, then all thses things wouldn't have occured. I'm not broken or shattered, but never expected such a big change in her attitude.  


So, unexpected happens with me and they teach me various lessons.  There are some incidents in life which ends leaving big question marks on our soul and Komakshi Sharma was surely among those mysterious questions, whose answer was in the form of lesson, that i understood after a  few months. 

MY HEART SAYS SHE IS OVERSMART and EVIL: BEWARE OF GIRLS NOW...

Hahahahhahahhahahah........Now that's pretty interesting to know that the girl with whom i was traveling in the same Amit Travels bus, is really something hard nut to crack. I sometimes espies the over all impressions of her mother in molding her attitude. In contrast to previous girl, i met pn skype, she looks more dexterous, sublime and cocky. December 8, 1987, born girl tried her best to mow me with her flirtatious signals. She sometimes jokingly says that "I want to marry you"..lolz...Believe me guys, she is not as good as me in many aspects. Even my heart shouts that she is evil, get away from her and i as a writer indeed feels the same thing for her. This time she is from Kalindi college, Delhi and she looks fake in every aspect. I don't know why horrendous girls always meets me exclusively. Now my heart trembles and shivers to talk to such girls. Whenever they see that a man is as innocent as cow, they start making him fool...lolzz....They behave like traditional India Woman" SATEE SAVITRI HINDUSTAANI NAAREE". But after six months when they come out of their shell, they behave like tigress, dropping their Silva and smacking their lips, ohh...wow!!!! let us suppress this man and eat his head. 95 % OF city girls, i have met in Delhi are really-really clever beyond our imagination. I being the closest observer and a writer can't stop my vibes to express this face of women.

I'm not even favouriing men but yes, this is also the naked truth, that in cities women are more dominating and sluty. They are the real catalyst, who enjoy pride in vanity and expressing their feelings. Women revoltuion is  important for society as well but  women specially in India gets extremely elightened by education, their expectations rises high. They become real warriors and crack utensils at home. I think when girl become godess, its really worth to bestow her respect but when she tends to masquerade her evil feelings and to use the people, she is  i believe  is the real terrorist on Earth . Guys!!!i'm really turned off by such incidents. I have decided to change my bus now.....lolzz.......hehehhehehehheheheheheheheheh....God weaves such incidents specially for me so that i could remain beware of soft spoken girls like this. So the best formulaa is too remain quiet and stop flirting............this is the lesson for me as well...that god has choosen someone really excellent for me and the one who respects family vaules.......

Sylvian Blues: Life is full of co-incedences

I think this world is more like vicious circle where you met many people and they keep on meeting you again and again. Surely, this really happens with me every time when i meet people from yester  years and new people from mars. Hhhh!!!!don't laugh guys, people from Mars i mean to say--those good and bad people i am going to meet in future. Early this week when i was in my daily routine to board the bus to Gurgaon at 8:00 AM, something strange occurred. Apparently, i was sitting on the second last seat of the crammed bus, feeling sleepy and speaking within my heart...OHH!!!god!!i hate all these Mondays and this nasty, cocky, horrendous monotonous journey. When i was just thinking about all this nasty crap while reminiscently, looking out of the window. Suddenly, an innocent voice of a girl flushed my ears and my heart beats commenced running faster than a speed of light. For sometime, i didn't even bothered who was sitting with me but at very next moment she asked me.......do this bus goes to Gurgaon every day? What are its timings? Hehehehhehehe!!!!!!Jesus!!What a sweet voice!! i muttered within my mind. I wasn't able to conceal my notorious smirk which impetuously was appearing on my face instead of my full resistance. I smiled mischievously and said yes, the timings are fixed in the morning. She replied ok!!After this i never expected that she at her first meet would start discussing about life and many other things. There are certain times in between when i thought that why did she told me that i don't have any boy friend and i am singlet. I blushed and my cheeks were red in extreme elation.

New Delhi, New Year Eve, 31st December 2009, a strange encounter...........

Its 3rd January 2010, New Delhi to New York, everyone from East to West is shivering from chilly winds. But this winter chill has never stopped Delhittes to celebrate 'New Year'. Infinite number of people from youth to old, thronged the bars, pubs and disco's, to make their, only moment of life more memorable. On 31st December 2009, 8:00PM, i was in Elevates, the famous night out hub for the young couples in Delhi. I was feeling lonely and aloof, from rest of the crowd, who came with their beloved ones and were enjoying their night out with their mates. With a glass of vodka in my hand, i was just looking at the happy and charming faces. 

When i just turned around towards the bartender and asked her for one more glass of Vodka, with sudden astonishment i discovered one of my class-mates, Shaambhavee was serving me the drink and my eye balls were left still for a second. The most meticulous girl of my class working as bartender!!!! I wasn't able to digest that thought. She tried to ignore me but after few hours of silence between us, i spoke to her. Finally, when she commneced talking, she burst up into tears and narrated the whole incident that how her boy friend ditched her and later, because of her ill fated destiny, she was forced to work as a bartender. "There are many times when we are not able to express our emotions because people in this world who are not worth telling anything and they could make fun of every incident". There is an element of more betrayal in the sentiments rather than understanding the feelings of a person". 
I was of course speechless, what to say? A girl from small town came to Delhi, to become something in life and life played a bad game with her. She told me that she can't even go to her home town because her parents would be extremely disheartened on listening that she wasn't even able to complete her graduation. I listened every thing quietly and later, she started discussing about my life. The whole night she was out with me and kept on talking. It was around 5:00 AM in the morning, when she tickled my cheeks  and kissed me on the fore head. She departed from that place and disppeared in the white blanket of fog. 
Later evening my friends laughed on me and stated that shaambhavee, died a month ago. She did a suicide and worked in the bar. Oh!!!!God!!!Fuck!!! for a minute i was left numb and chilled because on 31st December 20009, i was with a ghost of shaambhavee that very whole night. But the question is why did she met me? Although we never had that kind of chat..........

3 Idiots

13 Feb 2008, RED ROSES.........................

The people reading my blog, must be thinking, that this guy is obsessed with different female personalities. If the readers are thinking like this, then they are absolutely right, because, every experience in life, teaches you something and these lessons learnt from the past, adds new thought to a life. I believe, the lives of men revolve around three things, firstly God, secondly-money, thirdly-women. Apart from all ,the real story started , when i was in  the year third ,one year back during my graduation time in college, i met three most bewitching beauties and this was  the well accepted fact that my manly instincts, always laughed on me for being so flirtatious. My soul utters some peppy one-liners with in me,  " TOU ITNA KAMEENA KYUN HAI". I mean whats wrong in getting mischievous with some of the most intoxicating angels, because after 4 years, we never know, that in which hell parents would tie our knot with. I think my idea of living life is completely unique and "if every second is lost then everything is lost". Oh!!!!heck!!!!!I'm getting too much philosophical...lol....Lets move to year third, when i met Anu Priya.

Guys, what should i tell about that girl. Black deep mesmerizing eyes, straight hairs with the shade of light golden tone streaks, and the way she talks to everyone with such a politeness. Her mellifluous(sweet) voice, many times plays some kind of strange music with in my heart. I always tried my best to chat to her but as you know, "my college consists of millions of goons, who after watching a girl, take their hungry tongues out and follow her till their last breath". I don't know what kind of dogs were they really ? So desperate, so curious, such a great nymphomaniacs, one could ever imagine of. Where their is a will, their is a way. Now i finally, decided that i would talk to her, i gain hollered within my sub-consciousness, "Go....Hitesh.....Go....Hitesh!!!!Come on dude!!!!Be a man, be a brave soldier"!!!!

It was the month of chilling February and in winters only, the manly instincts get an opportunity to nurture their emotions with passion and compassion. That's why in India, all couples get hitched amidst the air of chilly winds, when their is fog all around and trees sheds their leaves, adding spellbinding aroma to the senses of valentine or married couples.  So do i follow the similar trend, and it was 13 February 2008, my B'day, before valentines day and on that as everyone in the class was exchanging Red Roses, i sitting at the corner was feeling really sad. Shockingly, Anu, sat with me on the same desk and commenced talking to me. Of course, i was feeling shy, pressing my lower lips under my teeth, i laughed deliberately and with strong emotion of excitement, i shouted, Wow!!!!Wow!!! Yes, "Today is the day to enjoy the royal feast". She was talking to me without any full stop and i intensely, looked into her eyes, nodding my head, as it seems i was in some other world.

Her each and every word was pulling strings of my heart, she placed her hand on my shoulders and asked me, Hiti, are you there, where were you lost?

I whispered : In your eyes.

Anu replied: What ? Did you said anything ?

I again said: No, no at all.

She continued her conversation and expressed her feelings, that Hiti, "I know you are very shy guy and that's the thing, which really makes you different from other guys in the class. I have been noticing you, since first year, that you tried to communicate with me at times but due to some bad guys, you were not".

I don't know but listening to all those words, i was left paralyzed and speechless for few seconds. She greeted me with the card and red roses. Holding my hand, she told me , that Hiti, you are my best friend.

Well!!! the boys watching me from the other side were burning like a steam engine and i was feeling like make them more envy...hehehehehehhehehe............

Although, the girl was already committed but her idea was to spend some moments with me and i being single is in a bad habit of exploring the hidden virtues of women.

 Sometimes silence brings so much, which you can't expect to happen.........

The chapter of that skype girl is over, but her friendship was unique in every aspect. Don't Worry I'll meet someone else and write something interesting.

These blogs are semi-fictional in nature, 100 lies and 100 truths........